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Laura: SOME DAYS, I WANT TO DIE

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SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO
TAKE CARE OF ME ANYMORE.

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Man:
I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE.

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I WOULDN'T WISH THIS
ON MY WORST ENEMY.

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Woman:
I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE.

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DON'T YOU DARE
PUT IT ALL OFF ON ME!

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LISTEN, SHE IS GOING TO DIE.
THAT'S ENOUGH!

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BOTH OF Y'ALL, STOP!
JUST STOP!

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Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'VE GOT
TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM.

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OTHERWISE, SURGERY
WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I CAN'T DO THIS

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WITHOUT SOMEBODY
TO HELP ME SAY NO.

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Dr. Nowzaradan:
IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD RIGHT NOW.

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SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO DYING.

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Laura: SOMETIMES YOU REALIZE
THAT YOU'RE ON THE WRONG PATH,

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BUT YOU CAN'T DO
ANYTHING ABOUT IT

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UNTIL YOU COME TO A CROSSROADS.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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OKAY.

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MOST DAYS,
I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GET UP.

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[ WATER RUNNING ]

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I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED
IN THIS BODY.

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OW.

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SORRY.

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OW, OW, OW!
WAIT, WAIT, WAIT.

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I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN.

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[ Voice breaking ]
IT'S A NIGHTMARE

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THAT I WANT TO WAKE UP,
BUT I CAN'T.

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YOU HAVE TO LIFT IT.

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OW, OW!
WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT!

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AND IT'S AN UGLY FEELING.

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I DON'T WANT NOBODY
TO EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS.

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I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG

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THAT I CAN'T TAKE CARE
OF MYSELF ANYMORE.

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IT'S JUST HUMILIATING

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TO HAVE YOUR FAMILY DO
EVERYTHING FOR YOU LIKE THIS.

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SOME DAYS, I WANT TO DIE

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SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO
TAKE CARE OF ME ANYMORE.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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ALL RIGHT.
READY?

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YEAH.

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WE DO MOSTLY EVERYTHING FOR HER.

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SHE NEEDS SOMEBODY ALL THE TIME.

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I FEEL BAD
'CAUSE SHE CAN'T DO IT HERSELF.

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BUT THAT'S WHY I'M THERE.

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Laura: NO MERCY.

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PICK UP THAT.

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I'M HERE TO HELP HER
WITH HER LIFE.

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CAREFUL. REMEMBER.

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SLOW.

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NOW WE GOT TO SHIFT IT.

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THERE.

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OW.

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Laura: IT'S HURTING ME,

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NOT BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING
FOR MYSELF.

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OH.

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DON'T LET GO OF ME!

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WELL...

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YOU NEVER THINK YOUR LIFE
WILL EVER END UP

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IN A PLACE LIKE THIS.

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GROWING UP, MY WEIGHT
WASN'T MUCH OF AN ISSUE.

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BUT I STARTED TO GAIN WEIGHT
WHEN I WAS 5.

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AN OLDER COUSIN OF MINE
MOLESTED ME.

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HE WOULD JUST TOUCH ME
AND STUFF.

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I NEVER TOLD
MY PARENTS ANYTHING,

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SO THE MOLESTATION WENT ON
FOR YEARS.

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MY WHOLE LIFE JUST CHANGED.

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SO I TURNED TO FOOD.

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THAT WAS MY COMFORT.

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IN ELEMENTARY,
I WAS ALWAYS THE BIGGEST KID.

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SHE USED TO GO TO SCHOOL,

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AND THEY WOULD MAKE FUN OF HER
'CAUSE SHE WAS OVERWEIGHT.

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Laura:
THEY WOULD CALL ME FAT AND...

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SAY THAT
"YOU'RE GONNA BREAK THE DESK."

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[ SNIFFLES ]

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AND I TOOK ALL THAT ANGER
AND PAIN AND KEPT EATING.

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AND BY THE TIME
I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL,

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I WAS ALREADY OVER 300 POUNDS.

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I JUST KEPT PUTTING ON WEIGHT
AND GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER.

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AND THEN I MET JOEY
WHEN I WAS 27.

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I DID LIKE HEAVYSET GIRLS
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER,

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SO I LIKED THE WAY SHE WAS.

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Laura: I'VE GAINED
A LOT MORE WEIGHT SINCE THEN.

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NOW I FEEL LIKE I'VE BECOME
THIS BURDEN IN HIS LIFE...

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BABY...

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YEAH?

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...CAN I HAVE SOMETHING
FROM THE SWEET BIN?

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...JUST SOMEONE
HE HAS TO TAKE CARE OF.

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SOME OF THE THINGS I DO FOR HER
MAY NOT BE GOOD FOR HER,

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LIKE THE SWEETS AND OTHER STUFF,

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BUT SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.

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I LOVE MY WIFE A LOT.

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BUT IT'S HARD TO TELL HER NO
'CAUSE I LOVE HER.

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Laura:
NOW I'M AROUND 600 POUNDS,

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AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE.

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I WANT TO GET HEALTHY,

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BUT I LOVE FOOD.

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OKAY.

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OW!

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[ GRUNTS ]

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I WANT TO HAVE A FUTURE
AND A LIFE.

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OW. MY BACK.

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IT'S HOT IN HERE.

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I NEED A SHIRT.

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I DON'T KNOW
WHAT COLOR SHIRT.

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I GUESS THE PURPLE ONE
THAT I HAD YESTERDAY.

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MAKE SURE
YOU STRETCH IT.

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I WANT THINGS.

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TELL HIM TO STRETCH IT.

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I WANT A JOB AND TO BE ABLE
TO HAVE A FAMILY.

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BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT,
I MAY NEVER HAVE KIDS OF MY OWN.

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SO I TREAT MY NIECES
LIKE THEY'RE MY OWN CHILDREN.

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BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME.

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AND JOEY HAS TO HELP ME
TO DO ANYTHING AND GO ANYWHERE.

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I DON'T KNOW
WHERE YOUR CANE'S AT.

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WELL, I NEED IT. OW.

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DAMN!
ALMOST BROKE MY LEG.

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I HAVE TO TAKE MY OXYGEN
AND MY WHEELCHAIR

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BECAUSE I CAN'T LIVE
WITHOUT THEM.

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I GET OUT MAYBE ONCE A MONTH,

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AND I WOULDN'T BE ABLE
TO DO THIS

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ON AN EVERYDAY BASIS.

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IT'S TOO MUCH WORK.

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IT HURTS A LOT,
AND PEOPLE STARE A LOT,

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SO I JUST DON'T
WANT TO DO IT MUCH.

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I FEEL BAD BECAUSE PEOPLE
ARE ALWAYS STARING AT HER,

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AND I'M WITH HER,
BUT I CAN'T DO NOTHING FOR HER.

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IT'S NOT RIGHT.

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Laura: I DON'T KNOW WHAT
THOSE PEOPLE ARE STARING AT.

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COME ON.
DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.

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I THINK SHE IS EMBARRASSED.

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SEE? I CAN'T EVEN
GET OUT THE CART.

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AND THEY LOOK AT HER,
YOU KNOW, "UGLY."

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MUCH BETTER.

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I FEEL DEPRESSED, OF COURSE,

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BECAUSE IT'S MY DAUGHTER
THEY'RE LOOKING AT.

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NANA,
I WANT A PINK CUPCAKE.

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THOSE ARE GOOD.
THEY HAVE ALMONDS IN THEM.

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SOME GOOD STUFF
RIGHT THERE.

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WHOA.

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THAT'S LIKE HEAVEN
OVER THERE.

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[ CHUCKLES ]

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AND THE WHITES.

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[ SPEAKING SPANISH ]

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ARE YOU GONNA EAT THEM
WITH ME?

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Laura: EVERY TIME
I HAVE A STRESS IN MY LIFE,

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I TURN TO SWEETS.

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I'LL GO, "OH, I'M STRESSED OUT.

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I'M GONNA GO EAT
A PIECE OF CAKE."

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OH, MY GOD.
MY FAVORITE CANDY.

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I KNOW I SHOULDN'T GET IT,

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BUT I KEEP GETTING IT,
AND I'M LIKE, "OH, MY GOD.

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I WANT THAT, I WANT THAT."

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I'LL GO LOOK FOR A BAKERY

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QUICKER THAN I'LL GO LOOK
FOR A DRIVE-THROUGH.

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I WISH THEY COULD JUST LOCK DOWN
ALL THE BAKERIES

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SO I DON'T HAVE TO
GO HIT THEM UP.

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I KNOW SOMETHING
HAS TO CHANGE NOW,

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BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW.

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I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING,

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OR I'M NOT GONNA BE AROUND
MUCH LONGER.

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WE NEED TWO
OF THE REGULAR TENDERS,

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AND THEN WE NEED THREE
OF THE HOT ONES.

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I HAVE A BIG FAMILY,
AND WE ALL LOVE TO EAT.

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[ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ]

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Laura: AND I JUST CAN'T STOP.

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ANYTIME.

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[ Voice breaking ] NOT BEING
ABLE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT

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IS KILLING ME.

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AND I FEEL LIKE I'M FAILING.

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I FEEL LIKE...
I'M GIVING UP ON THEM.

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Joey: MY BIGGEST FEAR IS

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THAT SHE DOESN'T GET HELP
AND SHE GIVES UP ON HERSELF.

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I WORRY ABOUT IT,

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BUT I DON'T WANT HER
TO KNOW ANYTHING,

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SO I JUST KEEP IT TO MYSELF.

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Laura: MY MOM CRIES WITH ME.

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SHE SAYS THAT SHE'S SORRY.

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AND I TOLD HER
IT'S NOT HER FAULT.

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[ GASPS ]

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I WANT TO CHANGE,

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BUT I'M SCARED
THAT I WON'T MAKE IT.

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I KNOW IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING,
I'M GONNA DIE SOON.

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WHY ARE YOU HOLDING
MY CANE?

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WELL, YOU --
I GOT YOU RIGHT NOW.

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YOU NEED IT FOR OUTSIDE.

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NANA WILL BE BACK
IN A LITTLE WHILE, OKAY?

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DOCTORS HAVE SAID
THAT THEY COULD HELP ME BEFORE,

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BUT THEY'VE DONE NOTHING FOR ME.

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I HOPE THIS DOCTOR'S DIFFERENT.

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A LOT OF DOCTORS HAVE TOLD ME

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THAT THEY'RE JUST GIVING ME
MEDICATION

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SO THEY CAN MAKE ME COMFORTABLE

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SO I CAN GO AHEAD AND DIE
ALREADY.

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I'M SCARED HE'S GONNA TELL ME
SOMETHING I CAN'T DO,

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AND I WON'T GET THE SURGERY.

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I'M A LITTLE SCARED
TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT, TOO.

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I DON'T KNOW
HOW MUCH I'VE GAINED

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SINCE THE LAST TIME
I WAS WEIGHED.

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WOW.

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ALL THE DOCTORS I'VE SEEN BEFORE
DIDN'T HELP ME.

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[ Voice breaking ]
SO, I'M NERVOUS ABOUT
WHAT HE'S GONNA TELL ME,

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AND I'M AFRAID OF HEARING
HE WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME.

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[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO.

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I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

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HI. I'M LAURA PEREZ.

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SO, YOU ARE HAVING DIFFICULTY
WITH YOUR WEIGHT, HUH?

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WHAT SEEMS TO BE
YOUR BIGGEST CHALLENGE

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WITH YOUR EATING HABIT?

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SWEETS.

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I'LL TRY TO FIND ANYTHING SWEET,
LIKE CANDY OR...

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A LOT OF CAKE.

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SO, WHERE DO YOU GET
THAT CAKE?

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WHO?

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YOU?

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YOU KNOW, I'VE NEVER SEEN
ANYBODY THIS OVERWEIGHT

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THAT DOESN'T HAVE
ENABLING PEOPLE AROUND THEM,

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SUPPORTING THEM.

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IT SHOULD BE THE OPPOSITE.

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THEY SHOULD TELL YOU
YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE THAT.

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I SEE YOU'RE CARRYING OXYGEN
WITH YOU ALL THE TIME?

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YES.

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OKAY.
AND YOU ARE DIABETIC?

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LAURA IS AT HER LIMIT,

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AND THE FAMILY IS
THE ONE PUSHING HER THERE.

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SHE CARRIES
AN OXYGEN TANK WITH HER

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BECAUSE SHE CAN NO LONGER
BREATHE ON HER OWN.

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SHE'S PHYSICALLY IN ONE
OF THE WORST SHAPE I HAVE SEEN.

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YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
GET CONTROL OF YOUR EATING,

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SO NO MORE CAKE.

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MY 2-YEAR-OLD
AND THE 5-YEAR-OLD,

234
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THEY'RE MY BABIES,

235
00:13:55,867 --> 00:13:57,733
AND THAT'S WHAT'S MAKING ME
GET MOTIVATED.

236
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THEY WROTE A LETTER TO YOU.

237
00:14:03,467 --> 00:14:07,133
SHE'S ONLY 5 YEARS OLD.

238
00:14:07,133 --> 00:14:09,133
SHE'S ONLY 5 YEARS OLD?

239
00:14:09,133 --> 00:14:10,900
YES.
WOW.

240
00:14:10,900 --> 00:14:14,267
"I WANT HER TO BE SKINNY."
AND WHO IS THAT?

241
00:14:14,267 --> 00:14:17,800
HER DAUGHTER,
BUT SHE'S LIKE MY --

242
00:14:17,800 --> 00:14:19,533
SHE CALLS ME MOMMY, TOO.

243
00:14:19,533 --> 00:14:23,400
ALL RIGHT. SO YOU'RE GONNA
MAKE THAT BABY PROUD.

244
00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:24,700
YES.

245
00:14:24,700 --> 00:14:27,600
SO, YOU KNOW,
YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITY

246
00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:31,067
TO THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU
TO MAKE THE CHANGES, OKAY?

247
00:14:31,067 --> 00:14:34,700
AND YOU NEED TO MAKE
THOSE CHANGES NOW

248
00:14:34,700 --> 00:14:35,967
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

249
00:14:35,967 --> 00:14:38,600
OTHERWISE, YOU'RE GONNA GET
SICKER AND SICKER,

250
00:14:38,600 --> 00:14:41,433
AND THERE'LL BE NO WAY
TO PULL YOU OUT.

251
00:14:41,433 --> 00:14:45,400
RIGHT NOW, I DON'T KNOW IF
YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO BE 50.

252
00:14:45,400 --> 00:14:50,200
I HAVE TO TRY TO DO IT
BECAUSE I NEED TO LIVE.

253
00:14:50,200 --> 00:14:53,700
I NEED TO LIVE FOR MY BABIES.
I NEED TO LIVE FOR MYSELF.

254
00:14:53,700 --> 00:14:58,100
TO DO THAT, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT.

255
00:14:58,100 --> 00:15:00,867
FREQUENCY OF EATING
IS GONNA BE ONLY THREE TIMES.

256
00:15:00,867 --> 00:15:03,667
THERE'LL BE NO SNACKING
BETWEEN THE MEALS.

257
00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,267
NO SWEETS.

258
00:15:05,267 --> 00:15:08,333
THIS IS GONNA BE
YOUR TRIAL PERIOD,

259
00:15:08,333 --> 00:15:13,767
AND I NEED YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS
OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS.

260
00:15:13,767 --> 00:15:15,633
YOU THINK
YOU CAN DO THAT?

261
00:15:15,633 --> 00:15:17,067
YES, I WILL DO IT.

262
00:15:17,067 --> 00:15:18,100
OKAY.

263
00:15:18,100 --> 00:15:22,133
LAURA HAS
A WHOLE ENVIRONMENT OF ENABLERS.

264
00:15:22,133 --> 00:15:25,267
THAT WILL BE VERY HARD
TO ADDRESS.

265
00:15:25,267 --> 00:15:26,400
ALL RIGHT.
NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS.

266
00:15:26,400 --> 00:15:27,700
Carmen: LIKEWISE, DOCTOR.

267
00:15:27,700 --> 00:15:30,967
WE'LL SEE HOW SHE DOES
OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS.

268
00:15:33,367 --> 00:15:34,833
Laura: IT'S SCARY TO KNOW

269
00:15:34,833 --> 00:15:37,633
THAT I HAVE TO LOSE THAT MUCH
TO GET THE SURGERY.

270
00:15:37,633 --> 00:15:38,933
GET SOME CIRCULATION GOING.

271
00:15:38,933 --> 00:15:42,933
I'VE NEVER TRIED TO DO
ANYTHING LIKE THIS.

272
00:15:42,933 --> 00:15:46,633
BUT I KNOW I'M DOWN
TO MY LAST RESORT.

273
00:15:49,167 --> 00:15:51,667
I JUST HOPE I CAN DO THIS.

274
00:16:02,567 --> 00:16:06,267
OVER THIS LAST MONTH,

275
00:16:06,267 --> 00:16:09,700
I'VE BEEN WORKING HARDER THAN
I'VE EVER WORKED AT ANYTHING.

276
00:16:09,700 --> 00:16:14,867
THE DOCTOR SAID I NEED TO MOVE
AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE,

277
00:16:14,867 --> 00:16:17,100
SO I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO THAT.

278
00:16:17,100 --> 00:16:21,900
WHAT SHE'S EATING NOW IS
A LOT OF SALADS AND VEGETABLES

279
00:16:21,900 --> 00:16:23,433
AND STUFF LIKE THAT.

280
00:16:23,433 --> 00:16:26,100
SHE'S REALLY STICKING
TO HER DIET,

281
00:16:26,100 --> 00:16:28,200
SO I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT.

282
00:16:28,200 --> 00:16:31,900
Laura:
JOEY'S BEEN REALLY SUPPORTIVE.

283
00:16:31,900 --> 00:16:35,700
SOMETIMES I JUST WANT
CANDY OR CAKE,

284
00:16:35,700 --> 00:16:38,900
BUT HE BRINGS ME GOOD STUFF NOW
AND NOT JUNK.

285
00:16:41,067 --> 00:16:42,667
OH, YEAH.

286
00:16:42,667 --> 00:16:46,833
THIS IS STEAMED CHICKEN
WITH VEGETABLES,

287
00:16:46,833 --> 00:16:50,167
BELL PEPPER, ONION,
AND MUSHROOMS.

288
00:16:50,167 --> 00:16:53,867
AND IT'S VERY DIFFERENT
THAN WHAT I WAS EATING.

289
00:16:53,867 --> 00:16:58,100
NO OTHER DOCTOR HAS GIVEN ME
THIS KIND OF HOPE.

290
00:16:58,100 --> 00:17:01,400
SO WHATEVER IT TAKES,
I'M WILLING TO DO IT.

291
00:17:11,267 --> 00:17:13,967
WE'RE AT
THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE AGAIN

292
00:17:13,967 --> 00:17:16,267
TO SEE IF I QUALIFY FOR SURGERY.

293
00:17:16,267 --> 00:17:17,600
I'M REALLY NERVOUS,

294
00:17:17,600 --> 00:17:20,933
'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW
WHAT THE ANSWER'S GOING TO BE.

295
00:17:28,700 --> 00:17:30,200
OH, MY GOSH.

296
00:17:33,067 --> 00:17:34,167
GOOD.

297
00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:36,733
Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO.
HOW YOU ALL DOING?

298
00:17:36,733 --> 00:17:38,600
GOOD.

299
00:17:38,600 --> 00:17:41,833
ALL RIGHT. SO YOU LOST
QUITE A BUT OF WEIGHT,

300
00:17:41,833 --> 00:17:43,800
SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE YOU
FOR SURGERY.

301
00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:45,967
WE'RE GONNA SCHEDULE YOU
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

302
00:17:45,967 --> 00:17:47,433
[ LAUGHS ]

303
00:17:47,433 --> 00:17:49,633
Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY PLEASED
WITH LAURA'S PROGRESS,

304
00:17:49,633 --> 00:17:53,167
AND IT SEEMS THE FAMILY'S
SUPPORTIVE OF HER.

305
00:17:53,167 --> 00:17:56,167
YOU'RE DOING VERY GOOD.
STICK WITH THE PROGRAM.

306
00:17:56,167 --> 00:17:57,867
OKAY. THANK YOU.
ALL RIGHT.

307
00:17:57,867 --> 00:18:01,133
WE'LL GO AHEAD
AND GET HER IN SURGERY,

308
00:18:01,133 --> 00:18:04,733
AND THEN WE'LL START WORKING ON
NEXT STEPS.

309
00:18:04,733 --> 00:18:07,733
Laura: THERE'S SO MUCH
I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO,

310
00:18:07,733 --> 00:18:09,167
AND I JUST CAN'T WAIT.

311
00:18:09,167 --> 00:18:12,200
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

312
00:18:12,200 --> 00:18:15,467
I'M NOT JUST FIGHTING
FOR MY LIFE.

313
00:18:15,467 --> 00:18:17,467
[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]

314
00:18:17,467 --> 00:18:20,167
I'M FIGHTING FOR MY FAMILY.

315
00:18:39,933 --> 00:18:43,800
THE REALITY OF THIS
IS ALL SETTING IN.

316
00:18:45,700 --> 00:18:49,533
THIS IS MAJOR SURGERY,
AND I'M REALLY SCARED.

317
00:18:49,533 --> 00:18:52,067
AND YOU'RE NOT GOING NOWHERE,
MY LITTLE PUMPKIN.

318
00:18:52,067 --> 00:18:53,800
Girl: BYE, NANA!
BYE, NANA!

319
00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:55,067
BYE, BABY.

320
00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:56,600
I LOVE YOU, NANA.

321
00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:58,167
I LOVE YOU, BABY.

322
00:18:58,167 --> 00:19:01,433
[ Crying ] I'M SCARED THAT
I'LL NEVER SEE MY BABIES AGAIN.

323
00:19:01,433 --> 00:19:04,567
[ SNIFFLES ]

324
00:19:14,267 --> 00:19:18,767
I'M SCARED I WON'T WAKE UP,
AND I JUST CAN'T DO IT.

325
00:19:18,767 --> 00:19:20,900
I CAN'T TAKE THE RISK.

326
00:19:20,900 --> 00:19:24,133
I'M CANCELING THE SURGERY.

327
00:19:33,933 --> 00:19:37,133
Laura: BITTERNESS AND PAIN
ARE LIKE A CURRENT

328
00:19:37,133 --> 00:19:41,333
THAT CAN TAKE YOU TO PLACES
YOU NEVER WANTED TO GO.

329
00:19:52,767 --> 00:19:54,433
I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW.

330
00:19:56,233 --> 00:19:58,767
I WANTED TO CALL OFF
THE SURGERY,

331
00:19:58,767 --> 00:20:02,033
BUT MY FAMILY CONVINCED ME
TO GO AHEAD AND DO IT.

332
00:20:04,267 --> 00:20:05,833
Woman: READY?

333
00:20:08,067 --> 00:20:09,467
I KNOW I WANT IT,

334
00:20:09,467 --> 00:20:12,100
BUT I'M JUST SO SCARED
RIGHT NOW.

335
00:20:12,100 --> 00:20:14,900
I'M SCARED
THAT I WON'T WAKE UP...

336
00:20:14,900 --> 00:20:18,633
PERFECT.
TAKE IN A DEEP BREATH.

337
00:20:18,633 --> 00:20:22,767
...AND I WON'T SEE
MY FAMILY AGAIN.

338
00:20:22,767 --> 00:20:25,867
Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA IS HAVING
HER GASTRIC BYPASS TODAY.

339
00:20:25,867 --> 00:20:31,133
THIS IS A RISKY OPERATION
FOR A PATIENT THIS SIZE,

340
00:20:31,133 --> 00:20:34,400
AND THERE ARE ADDITIONAL
RISK FACTORS FOR LAURA

341
00:20:34,400 --> 00:20:37,100
BECAUSE OF THE REST
OF HER CONDITION.

342
00:20:37,100 --> 00:20:40,400
WE HAVE TO BE CAREFUL
TO MAKE SURE

343
00:20:40,400 --> 00:20:43,033
THAT SURGERY
IS NOT GONNA COMPROMISE

344
00:20:43,033 --> 00:20:44,233
THE REST OF HER STATUS

345
00:20:44,233 --> 00:20:47,233
AND CREATE
SOME EMERGENCY SITUATION.

346
00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:50,800
BUT THIS BYPASS
WILL HELP HER LOSE WEIGHT

347
00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:52,800
AND MAKE GOOD PROGRESS.

348
00:20:56,367 --> 00:20:57,733
THIS IS NOT GOOD.

349
00:20:57,733 --> 00:20:59,067
[ MONITORS BEEPING LOUDLY ]

350
00:21:13,600 --> 00:21:16,767
IT LOOKS LIKE IT IS IMPOSSIBLE
TO DO A BYPASS.

351
00:21:16,767 --> 00:21:20,067
WE HAVE TO CONVERT
TO A SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY.

352
00:21:20,067 --> 00:21:23,500
GASTRIC SLEEVE IS AN OPERATION

353
00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:26,067
THAT WILL REDUCE
THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH.

354
00:21:26,067 --> 00:21:29,300
WE ESSENTIALLY TAKE
ABOUT 80% OF THE STOMACH OUT.

355
00:21:29,300 --> 00:21:32,667
THE SURGERY WILL STILL HELP HER

356
00:21:32,667 --> 00:21:36,333
BUT NOT AS MUCH
AS A FULL BYPASS.

357
00:21:39,433 --> 00:21:41,533
LAURA'S SURGERY IS FINISHED.

358
00:21:41,533 --> 00:21:43,767
IT WENT AS WELL AS POSSIBLE

359
00:21:43,767 --> 00:21:46,067
WITH THE SITUATION
THAT WE ENCOUNTERED.

360
00:21:46,067 --> 00:21:48,933
1, 2, 3.

361
00:21:51,500 --> 00:21:55,333
HER SURGERY DID NOT GO
AS WE PLANNED.

362
00:21:55,333 --> 00:22:01,867
BUT WE ACCOMPLISHED SOME SORT
OF WEIGHT-LOSS OPERATION.

363
00:22:01,867 --> 00:22:03,600
BUT UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES,

364
00:22:03,600 --> 00:22:06,400
THAT'S THE ONLY TOOL
WE CAN OFFER FOR LAURA.

365
00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:08,167
SO SHE SHOULD RECOVER WELL,

366
00:22:08,167 --> 00:22:11,167
AND SHE SHOULD STILL
START LOSING WEIGHT

367
00:22:11,167 --> 00:22:12,667
WHEN SHE GOES HOME.

368
00:22:34,133 --> 00:22:35,433
Carmen: GOOD MORNING.

369
00:22:35,433 --> 00:22:36,700
Laura: THIS PAST MONTH

370
00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:39,200
HASN'T BEEN AS EASY
AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.

371
00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:42,433
I WAS REALLY UPSET
WHEN I WOKE UP

372
00:22:42,433 --> 00:22:46,267
AND THE DOCTOR TOLD ME
HE COULDN'T DO THE BYPASS.

373
00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:52,333
BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT
I WAS WORKING SO HARD FOR,

374
00:22:52,333 --> 00:22:54,900
AND IT FEELS LIKE
IT WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME.

375
00:22:54,900 --> 00:22:58,067
I'M TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK,

376
00:22:58,067 --> 00:23:00,900
BUT I STILL HAVE CRAVINGS,

377
00:23:00,900 --> 00:23:03,600
SO IT'S HARD TO KNOW
MY NEW LIMITS.

378
00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:08,267
I'VE BEEN THROWING UP A LOT

379
00:23:08,267 --> 00:23:11,267
BECAUSE I'M EATING MORE
THAN MY STOMACH CAN HOLD.

380
00:23:11,267 --> 00:23:12,600
AND I DIDN'T KNOW

381
00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:15,933
IT WOULD BE TOUGH FOR ME
TO KNOW WHEN TO STOP.

382
00:23:15,933 --> 00:23:18,167
YOU EAT YOUR EGG.

383
00:23:21,667 --> 00:23:24,100
DONE.

384
00:23:26,733 --> 00:23:28,333
AND I'M TRYING TO GET UP

385
00:23:28,333 --> 00:23:30,833
AND MOVE AROUND
LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO,

386
00:23:30,833 --> 00:23:33,667
BUT THAT'S BEEN TOUGH, TOO.

387
00:23:33,667 --> 00:23:35,667
NANA,
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

388
00:23:35,667 --> 00:23:38,333
I HAVE TO WALK.

389
00:23:38,333 --> 00:23:44,267
I'VE BEEN FEELING REALLY
RUN DOWN AND WINDED LATELY.

390
00:23:44,267 --> 00:23:46,500
MY LUNGS HURT A LOT.

391
00:23:46,500 --> 00:23:49,467
I KNOW I CAN DO THIS,

392
00:23:49,467 --> 00:23:54,433
AND I HAVE TO STAY STRONG
FOR MY FAMILY AND MYSELF.

393
00:23:54,433 --> 00:23:57,200
I DON'T WANT TO FAIL AT THIS.

394
00:23:57,200 --> 00:24:01,167
I JUST DIDN'T REALIZE
IT WOULD BE SO HARD.

395
00:24:16,733 --> 00:24:19,867
Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA'S FAMILY
SAYS THAT SHE PASSED OUT,

396
00:24:19,867 --> 00:24:22,433
AND THEN THEY RUSHED HER
TO A HOSPITAL.

397
00:24:22,433 --> 00:24:25,067
RIGHT NOW,
SHE CAN'T BREATHE ON HER OWN,

398
00:24:25,067 --> 00:24:28,167
AND WE GOT HER ON A VENTILATOR.

399
00:24:28,167 --> 00:24:32,667
WE NEED TO FIND OUT WHAT'S
GOING ON WITH HER IMMEDIATELY.

400
00:24:34,667 --> 00:24:39,300
AND WE'RE GOING TO TRY
TO GET HER THROUGH THIS.

401
00:24:39,300 --> 00:24:42,100
[ Voice breaking ]
I'VE NEVER SEEN HER LIKE THIS.

402
00:24:46,633 --> 00:24:48,567
SHE'S GONNA GET THROUGH IT.

403
00:24:48,567 --> 00:24:50,767
SHE'S STRONG.
I KNOW SHE IS.

404
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:03,267
[ MONITOR BEEPING ]

405
00:25:20,433 --> 00:25:23,167
Dr. Nowzaradan:
LAURA'S FAMILY SAYS

406
00:25:23,167 --> 00:25:25,233
SHE HASN'T BEEN FEELING WELL

407
00:25:25,233 --> 00:25:27,067
BUT NEVER CAME TO THE HOSPITAL.

408
00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:30,433
AND IT LOOKS LIKE
SHE HAS PNEUMONIA,

409
00:25:30,433 --> 00:25:32,633
AND IT IS PRETTY SEVERE.

410
00:25:34,300 --> 00:25:37,233
WE GOT HER JUST IN TIME
TO KEEP HER ALIVE.

411
00:25:37,233 --> 00:25:42,233
BUT IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD
RIGHT NOW.

412
00:25:42,233 --> 00:25:43,633
SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO DYING.

413
00:25:46,067 --> 00:25:48,633
Joey: THE EMOTIONS
I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW

414
00:25:48,633 --> 00:25:49,967
IS JUST RUNNING WILD

415
00:25:49,967 --> 00:25:51,567
BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE TO SEE HER
LIKE THAT.

416
00:25:54,067 --> 00:25:56,133
LAURA IS MY LIFE.

417
00:25:56,133 --> 00:25:59,467
SHE'S BEEN THERE WITH ME
THROUGH THICK AND THIN.

418
00:25:59,467 --> 00:26:04,700
IT'S VERY SAD
TO SEE HER IN THIS STATE.

419
00:26:04,700 --> 00:26:07,867
AND I CAN'T HELP HER.

420
00:26:07,867 --> 00:26:09,567
Dr. Nowzaradan:
A PATIENT THIS SIZE

421
00:26:09,567 --> 00:26:14,167
CANNOT HANDLE
ANY SORT OF SICKNESS.

422
00:26:14,167 --> 00:26:18,133
THEIR BODY
HAS NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE.

423
00:26:18,133 --> 00:26:19,700
WE GOT TO DO WHAT WE CAN

424
00:26:19,700 --> 00:26:24,400
TO SEE IF WE'RE GONNA PULL HER
THROUGH THIS.

425
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:28,067
BUT RIGHT NOW,
SHE'S BARELY HOLDING ON.

426
00:26:52,267 --> 00:26:54,367
Laura: BEING IN THE HOSPITAL,

427
00:26:54,367 --> 00:26:57,667
COMING THAT CLOSE TO DEATH
WAS PRETTY SCARY.

428
00:26:57,667 --> 00:27:00,533
HANG ON.

429
00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:07,400
IT MADE ME REALIZE
HOW MUCH OF MY LIFE I'VE WASTED.

430
00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:12,500
I'VE TAKEN
ALL THIS PAIN AND BITTERNESS,

431
00:27:12,500 --> 00:27:16,433
AND ALL I DID WAS EAT
INSTEAD OF DEALING WITH IT.

432
00:27:20,233 --> 00:27:24,267
I THOUGHT IF I LOST THE WEIGHT,
THEN I WOULD START TO GET HAPPY,

433
00:27:24,267 --> 00:27:27,067
BUT IT'S REALLY JUST BEEN
BRINGING EVERYTHING

434
00:27:27,067 --> 00:27:28,133
TO THE SURFACE,

435
00:27:28,133 --> 00:27:32,067
AND I DON'T WANT TO
RUN FROM IT ANYMORE.

436
00:27:34,067 --> 00:27:36,267
I NEED GOD TO CHANGE MY HEART

437
00:27:36,267 --> 00:27:39,567
TOWARDS ALL THE PEOPLE
THAT HAVE HURT ME.

438
00:27:40,933 --> 00:27:43,867
THE BITTERNESS
HAS BEEN KILLING ME,

439
00:27:43,867 --> 00:27:46,067
AND I JUST WANT TO LET IT GO

440
00:27:46,067 --> 00:27:49,767
SO I CAN BE FREE TO LIVE MY LIFE
AND BE HEALTHY.

441
00:27:53,733 --> 00:27:56,433
I WANT SO DESPERATELY TO HEAL.

442
00:27:56,433 --> 00:28:01,567
BUT I DON'T KNOW
IF I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO DO IT.

443
00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:19,867
THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON
INSIDE ME.

444
00:28:19,867 --> 00:28:22,133
I JUST NEED HELP
TO FIGURE IT OUT.

445
00:28:22,133 --> 00:28:23,500
Joey: YOU READY?

446
00:28:24,933 --> 00:28:29,500
A NEW BODY WON'T MATTER
IF I STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY.

447
00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:33,067
SO I'M GONNA SEE
A THERAPIST TODAY

448
00:28:33,067 --> 00:28:35,933
TO TALK TO SOMEONE
ABOUT MY PAST.

449
00:28:35,933 --> 00:28:37,633
HI, LAURA.

450
00:28:37,633 --> 00:28:41,633
I'M MOLLY.
LET'S GO AHEAD AND GO BACK.

451
00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,067
I JUST KIND OF WANT TO
GET TO KNOW YOU A LITTLE BIT,

452
00:28:46,067 --> 00:28:48,600
SO IF YOU COULD JUST SHARE
A LITTLE BIT

453
00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:51,433
ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT ME
TO KNOW ABOUT YOU...

454
00:28:51,433 --> 00:28:53,900
I'VE BEEN HEAVY ALL MY LIFE.

455
00:28:53,900 --> 00:28:55,067
MM-HMM.

456
00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:56,667
AND, UM,
I WENT THROUGH A LOT.

457
00:28:56,667 --> 00:29:00,833
SOMETIMES WHEN I WAS YOUNG,
I FELT LIKE I WASN'T PROTECTED.

458
00:29:00,833 --> 00:29:02,500
YEAH.

459
00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:06,400
[ Voice breaking ] ONE OF
MY OLDER COUSINS MOLESTED ME.

460
00:29:06,400 --> 00:29:10,500
I WAS A LITTLE GIRL,
4 YEARS OLD,

461
00:29:10,500 --> 00:29:12,767
TILL PROBABLY 10.

462
00:29:12,767 --> 00:29:16,833
THAT'S A BIG AMOUNT OF TIME
IN YOUR LIFE.

463
00:29:16,833 --> 00:29:18,067
YEAH.

464
00:29:18,067 --> 00:29:22,867
I HELD IT IN
TILL I WAS 21 YEARS OLD.

465
00:29:22,867 --> 00:29:24,233
THAT'S A LONG TIME.

466
00:29:24,233 --> 00:29:25,533
I COULDN'T TELL NOBODY.

467
00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:30,100
'CAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS...

468
00:29:30,100 --> 00:29:32,567
MY FAULT.

469
00:29:32,567 --> 00:29:37,067
SO IT WAS JUST LIKE
I WOULD EAT SOMETHING SWEET,

470
00:29:37,067 --> 00:29:39,233
AND I WOULD FEEL BETTER.

471
00:29:39,233 --> 00:29:42,133
WELL, THAT WAS YOUR COMFORT,
RIGHT?

472
00:29:42,133 --> 00:29:45,233
THAT WAS THE ONE THING
YOU COULD RELY ON.

473
00:29:45,233 --> 00:29:46,700
YEAH.

474
00:29:46,700 --> 00:29:50,567
DO YOU FEEL LIKE IT KIND OF
FILLED A VOID IN YOUR LIFE?

475
00:29:50,567 --> 00:29:52,100
EVEN IF I WOULD EAT,

476
00:29:52,100 --> 00:29:54,700
THE PROBLEM
WOULD STILL BE THERE.

477
00:29:54,700 --> 00:29:55,833
YEAH.

478
00:29:55,833 --> 00:29:58,233
SO I WOULD EAT AGAIN
AND AGAIN AND AGAIN.

479
00:29:58,233 --> 00:29:59,700
A VICIOUS CYCLE.

480
00:29:59,700 --> 00:30:03,767
I DON'T KNOW
HOW TO LET GO OF STUFF.

481
00:30:03,767 --> 00:30:07,267
THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS
THAT HAPPENED TO YOU

482
00:30:07,267 --> 00:30:08,867
THAT WERE NOT OKAY,

483
00:30:08,867 --> 00:30:12,133
AND YOU CAN'T
JUST BE OKAY WITH IT.

484
00:30:12,133 --> 00:30:15,333
BUT FORGIVING
IS TO LET IT GO,

485
00:30:15,333 --> 00:30:19,867
AND IT RELEASES YOU
FROM HOLDING ON TO ALL OF THAT.

486
00:30:19,867 --> 00:30:20,933
I PRAY AND PRAY,

487
00:30:20,933 --> 00:30:23,067
LIKE, "GOD, PLEASE,
SOFTEN MY HEART.

488
00:30:23,067 --> 00:30:25,500
LET ME FORGIVE
THE BAD THINGS."

489
00:30:25,500 --> 00:30:27,000
BUT I DON'T FORGIVE.

490
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:31,233
BUT, YOU KNOW, FORGIVENESS
IS NOT FOR EVERYONE ELSE.

491
00:30:31,233 --> 00:30:32,733
IT'S FOR YOU.

492
00:30:32,733 --> 00:30:35,067
FORGIVENESS ALLOWS THEM

493
00:30:35,067 --> 00:30:38,333
TO NOT HAVE THAT POWER
OVER YOU ANYMORE.

494
00:30:38,333 --> 00:30:40,800
BECAUSE AS LONG
AS YOU'RE HOLDING ON TO THAT,

495
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:42,100
THEY STILL HAVE CONTROL.

496
00:30:42,100 --> 00:30:47,133
I HAVE TO FORGIVE
SO I CAN MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE,

497
00:30:47,133 --> 00:30:50,033
SO I CAN BE HAPPY
WITH MY NEW BODY...

498
00:30:50,033 --> 00:30:51,367
[ CHUCKLES ]

499
00:30:51,367 --> 00:30:53,267
...AND MY NEW LIFE.

500
00:30:53,267 --> 00:30:55,767
SO I CAN MAKE NEW MEMORIES.

501
00:30:55,767 --> 00:30:58,333
YEAH.

502
00:30:58,333 --> 00:31:01,467
I WANT TO WORK ON THAT.

503
00:31:01,467 --> 00:31:05,300
I APPRECIATE SO MUCH
WHAT YOU DID SHARE TODAY.

504
00:31:09,333 --> 00:31:13,100
Laura: IT'S EASY TO KNOW
I NEED TO FORGIVE.

505
00:31:13,100 --> 00:31:16,200
BUT HOW DO YOU TAKE
A LIFE OF PAIN

506
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:18,433
AND JUST LET IT GO?

507
00:31:20,667 --> 00:31:21,800
IF I DON'T,

508
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,767
I KNOW I'M NOT GONNA MAKE
ANY MORE PROGRESS.

509
00:31:24,767 --> 00:31:30,067
THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE,
AND I HAVE TO DO THIS.

510
00:31:34,867 --> 00:31:36,733
Laura: IT'S HARD TO REALIZE

511
00:31:36,733 --> 00:31:40,400
THE CHOICES YOU NEED TO MAKE
TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND,

512
00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:43,567
BUT THE HARDEST PART
IS FOLLOWING THROUGH

513
00:31:43,567 --> 00:31:45,567
AND MAKING THOSE CHOICES.

514
00:31:58,067 --> 00:32:00,933
WE'RE AT
THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE TODAY

515
00:32:00,933 --> 00:32:03,833
TO SEE IF I'VE MADE
ANY MORE PROGRESS.

516
00:32:03,833 --> 00:32:05,600
Woman: MS. PEREZ?

517
00:32:07,933 --> 00:32:10,667
IT'S BEEN
AN EMOTIONAL FEW MONTHS,

518
00:32:10,667 --> 00:32:12,600
AND IT'S BEEN HARDER TO MAKE
ALL THE RIGHT CHOICES

519
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:14,900
AND TO EAT WHAT I SHOULD.

520
00:32:22,967 --> 00:32:24,867
Dr. Nowzaradan:
I'M REALLY CONCERNED

521
00:32:24,867 --> 00:32:27,467
ABOUT YOUR LACK
OF PROGRESS.

522
00:32:27,467 --> 00:32:31,467
FOR YOUR HEIGHT,
YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT IS 120.

523
00:32:31,467 --> 00:32:36,067
SO, YOU'RE WAY OVER,
OVER YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT.

524
00:32:36,067 --> 00:32:37,667
I STILL HAVE
A LOT OF WORK TO DO.

525
00:32:37,667 --> 00:32:41,700
YOU CANNOT START
GAINING WEIGHT AGAIN,

526
00:32:41,700 --> 00:32:43,767
AND THAT'S THE NEXT STEP
FROM HERE.

527
00:32:43,767 --> 00:32:47,433
Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA IS
A VERY EMOTIONAL PERSON.

528
00:32:47,433 --> 00:32:48,933
BEFORE SURGERY,

529
00:32:48,933 --> 00:32:51,967
THERE WAS LESS OF A STRUGGLE
WITH HER EMOTIONS,

530
00:32:51,967 --> 00:32:54,333
SO SHE MADE GOOD PROGRESS.

531
00:32:54,333 --> 00:32:57,767
NOW SHE HAS TO LEARN
TO DEAL WITH EMOTIONS

532
00:32:57,767 --> 00:32:59,867
AND NOT USE FOOD FOR THAT.

533
00:32:59,867 --> 00:33:02,767
YOU NEED TO GET YOUR EATING
UNDER CONTROL NOW.

534
00:33:02,767 --> 00:33:08,133
IF SHE DOESN'T, THE SURGERY
WILL HAVE BEEN POINTLESS.

535
00:33:08,133 --> 00:33:09,733
WHOA.

536
00:33:09,733 --> 00:33:12,367
Laura: I HAVE TO DEAL WITH
ALL THE PAIN THAT I HAVE

537
00:33:12,367 --> 00:33:16,267
AND KEEP MAKING PROGRESS
WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS.

538
00:33:16,267 --> 00:33:20,300
THAT'S THE ONLY WAY
I'M GONNA GET MY LIFE BACK.

539
00:33:40,567 --> 00:33:44,233
I'VE HAD SOME BITTERNESS
TOWARDS MY MOM

540
00:33:44,233 --> 00:33:46,367
THAT I'VE NEVER FULLY LET GO OF.

541
00:33:48,833 --> 00:33:50,333
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER,

542
00:33:50,333 --> 00:33:54,067
I BLAMED HER
FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.

543
00:33:54,067 --> 00:33:56,067
UM...

544
00:33:56,067 --> 00:34:00,633
I NEVER LET THAT GO,
AND I WANT TO DO THAT.

545
00:34:00,633 --> 00:34:01,967
I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS,

546
00:34:01,967 --> 00:34:04,600
'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW
HOW SHE'S GONNA REACT.

547
00:34:04,600 --> 00:34:07,167
I'LL TAKE THE CHILE RELLENO,
THE BEEF.

548
00:34:07,167 --> 00:34:09,633
I LOVE MY MOM,
AND HONESTLY,

549
00:34:09,633 --> 00:34:12,433
SHE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT
RELATIONSHIP I HAVE IN MY LIFE,

550
00:34:12,433 --> 00:34:16,433
AND I THINK THE PAIN
THAT'S BEEN THERE BETWEEN US

551
00:34:16,433 --> 00:34:19,733
HAS BEEN
WHAT'S AFFECTING ME THE MOST.

552
00:34:19,733 --> 00:34:22,067
HERE WE ARE.

553
00:34:22,067 --> 00:34:24,067
OH, THAT LOOKS GOOD.

554
00:34:24,067 --> 00:34:27,800
I WANTED TO THANK YOU

555
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:31,333
FOR ALWAYS
TAKING CARE OF ME,

556
00:34:31,333 --> 00:34:33,333
AND WITHOUT YOU,
EVERYBODY WOULD FALL APART.

557
00:34:33,333 --> 00:34:35,333
I GUESS, HONESTLY,

558
00:34:35,333 --> 00:34:36,700
AS YOU GOT OLDER,
YOU THOUGHT THAT WAY,

559
00:34:36,700 --> 00:34:38,433
BUT WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG,
YOU DIDN'T THINK THAT WAY.

560
00:34:38,433 --> 00:34:40,900
I BLAMED YOU.

561
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:48,067
I GUESS YOU HAD
SOME KIND OF HATE TOWARDS ME.

562
00:34:48,067 --> 00:34:49,067
IT WASN'T HATE.

563
00:34:49,067 --> 00:34:51,133
IT WAS JUST, LIKE,
I NEVER FELT LIKE...

564
00:34:51,133 --> 00:34:54,100
AS YOU GOT OLDER,
YOU REALIZED, YOU KNOW...

565
00:34:54,100 --> 00:34:55,567
THAT IT WASN'T
YOUR FAULT.

566
00:34:58,133 --> 00:35:01,967
AND "SORRY," FOR ME,
IS, LIKE, A HARD WORD, TOO.

567
00:35:01,967 --> 00:35:05,400
I'VE NEVER OPENED UP.

568
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,500
DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE?
I GUESS I WANT TO CHANGE THAT.

569
00:35:08,500 --> 00:35:09,833
I WANT TO CHANGE THAT.

570
00:35:09,833 --> 00:35:10,900
I JUST FELT LIKE

571
00:35:10,900 --> 00:35:13,567
YOU WERE DISAPPOINTED WITH ME
ALL THE TIME.

572
00:35:13,567 --> 00:35:14,767
WHY?

573
00:35:18,333 --> 00:35:22,167
[ Voice breaking ] I WANTED YOU
TO BE PROUD OF ME.

574
00:35:22,167 --> 00:35:24,867
YOU WALKED FROM THE CAR
OVER HERE,

575
00:35:24,867 --> 00:35:27,967
YOU CAME DOWN THE STAIRS,
NO WHEELCHAIR.

576
00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:31,300
I'M PROUD OF YOU.

577
00:35:31,300 --> 00:35:33,767
NOBODY IN THE WORLD,
NOT EVEN YOUR DAD,

578
00:35:33,767 --> 00:35:36,400
YOUR BROTHERS,
YOUR SISTERS, YOUR HUSBAND,

579
00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:38,133
IS GONNA LOVE YOU
LIKE I DO.

580
00:35:43,067 --> 00:35:47,300
Laura: I'M SO THANKFUL TO START
TO LET SOME OF THIS GO.

581
00:35:47,300 --> 00:35:50,600
I LOVE MY MOM SO MUCH.

582
00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:53,500
I ALWAYS HAVE,
AND I ALWAYS WILL.

583
00:35:53,500 --> 00:35:57,967
I FEEL LIKE A WEIGHT
HAS BEEN LIFTED.

584
00:35:57,967 --> 00:36:01,933
THIS HAS OPENED UP
A NEW DOOR FOR US.

585
00:36:18,467 --> 00:36:19,533
Laura: WHAT DO I DO?

586
00:36:19,533 --> 00:36:21,367
SHOULD I COOK
THE VEGETABLES FIRST?

587
00:36:21,367 --> 00:36:22,633
Joey: YEAH.
AND THEN COOK THE STEAK?

588
00:36:22,633 --> 00:36:24,067
BECAUSE THE STEAK'S
GONNA TAKE LONGER.

589
00:36:25,300 --> 00:36:28,667
I'M STARTING TO DO
A LOT MORE FOR MYSELF.

590
00:36:30,133 --> 00:36:32,933
TODAY, YOU'RE GONNA SEE
NANA COOKING.

591
00:36:34,367 --> 00:36:38,333
I WANT TO BECOME
AS SELF-SUFFICIENT AS POSSIBLE.

592
00:36:38,333 --> 00:36:40,300
Girl: NANA,
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

593
00:36:40,300 --> 00:36:43,300
I'M COOKING VEGETABLES.

594
00:36:43,300 --> 00:36:45,067
FOR SO MANY YEARS,

595
00:36:45,067 --> 00:36:49,767
JOEY AND MY MOM
HAD TO DO EVERYTHING FOR ME.

596
00:36:49,767 --> 00:36:55,333
I WANT TO GIVE BACK
AS MUCH AS I CAN.

597
00:36:57,300 --> 00:37:00,867
MY GOD.
THIS COULD FEED AN ARMY.

598
00:37:00,867 --> 00:37:02,867
I'M LEARNING MORE AND MORE

599
00:37:02,867 --> 00:37:05,767
TO STOP GOING TO FOOD
FOR COMFORT.

600
00:37:10,667 --> 00:37:13,467
Joey:
THAT'S A STEAK RIGHT THERE.

601
00:37:13,467 --> 00:37:14,467
Girl: WOW.

602
00:37:14,467 --> 00:37:16,267
IT'S HARD
WHEN I'M REALLY EMOTIONAL,

603
00:37:16,267 --> 00:37:18,300
BUT IT'S GETTING EASIER.

604
00:37:19,667 --> 00:37:23,967
IT JUST TAKES TIME
TO MAKE THE CHANGES LAST.

605
00:37:23,967 --> 00:37:25,467
Joey: I'M PRETTY HAPPY FOR HER.

606
00:37:25,467 --> 00:37:27,933
SHE'S, LIKE,
DOING EVERYTHING FOR HERSELF,

607
00:37:27,933 --> 00:37:29,333
AND I'M ALL LIKE, "WOW."

608
00:37:29,333 --> 00:37:30,467
SO NOW YOU'RE GONNA COOK FOR ME
EVERY NIGHT?

609
00:37:30,467 --> 00:37:32,400
I'LL COOK FOR YOU
EVERY NIGHT.

610
00:37:33,500 --> 00:37:35,600
Laura: I'M BREAKING
MY ADDICTION TO FOOD.

611
00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:37,667
I'M FULL.

612
00:37:38,633 --> 00:37:42,300
I THINK WE DID A GOOD JOB,
LIKE A TEAM.

613
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:52,967
TODAY, I'M ON MY WAY
TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN.

614
00:37:56,233 --> 00:37:57,833
OKAY.

615
00:37:59,333 --> 00:38:02,467
I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR A YEAR,

616
00:38:02,467 --> 00:38:05,667
BUT REALLY, THE LAST FEW MONTHS,
I'VE GIVEN IT MY ALL.

617
00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:10,500
IT WOULD BE REALLY HARD
TO FIND OUT

618
00:38:10,500 --> 00:38:12,867
I HAVEN'T DONE WELL AGAIN.

619
00:38:14,500 --> 00:38:17,433
IT WOULD BE SO DEMORALIZING.

620
00:38:35,133 --> 00:38:38,267
Laura:
I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR A YEAR.

621
00:38:38,267 --> 00:38:40,867
IT WOULD BE REALLY HARD
TO FIND OUT

622
00:38:40,867 --> 00:38:42,767
I HAVEN'T DONE WELL AGAIN.

623
00:38:45,767 --> 00:38:47,433
[ GASPS ]

624
00:38:47,433 --> 00:38:49,800
[ LAUGHS ]

625
00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:51,900
WOW. THAT WAS GOOD.

626
00:38:51,900 --> 00:38:53,100
I THOUGHT I MADE PROGRESS,

627
00:38:53,100 --> 00:38:55,067
BUT I DIDN'T THINK
IT WAS GONNA BE THIS MUCH.

628
00:38:55,067 --> 00:38:56,267
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

629
00:38:56,267 --> 00:38:57,733
HELLO.
HI, DOCTOR.

630
00:38:57,733 --> 00:39:00,500
HOW DOES IT FEEL
LOSING ALL THAT WEIGHT?

631
00:39:00,500 --> 00:39:01,633
I FEEL GREAT.

632
00:39:01,633 --> 00:39:04,133
JUST I GET UP
IN THE MORNING HAPPIER.

633
00:39:04,133 --> 00:39:07,933
WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU
THAT YOU STUCK WITH THE PROGRAM.

634
00:39:07,933 --> 00:39:09,300
THANK YOU.

635
00:39:09,300 --> 00:39:10,333
AND YOU HAVE COME
A LONG WAY.

636
00:39:10,333 --> 00:39:11,667
Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA HAS PROVEN

637
00:39:11,667 --> 00:39:15,600
THAT SHE CAN GET HER EMOTIONAL
EATING UNDER CONTROL.

638
00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:17,267
WE JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE

639
00:39:17,267 --> 00:39:20,333
THAT WE KEEP THIS GOING
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

640
00:39:20,333 --> 00:39:22,967
BUT FOR NOW, SHE'S DOING GREAT.

641
00:39:22,967 --> 00:39:25,367
CAN I GIVE YOU A HUG
BECAUSE YOU SAVED MY LIFE?

642
00:39:25,367 --> 00:39:27,067
ABSOLUTELY.
ALL RIGHT.

643
00:39:27,067 --> 00:39:29,333
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
OH, YOU'RE WELCOME.

644
00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:30,700
OKAY.

645
00:39:30,700 --> 00:39:32,467
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.
Joey: THANK YOU.

646
00:39:32,467 --> 00:39:33,733
ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU.

647
00:39:33,733 --> 00:39:35,133
THANK YOU.

648
00:39:35,133 --> 00:39:37,867
THANK YOU, DOCTOR,
FOR EVERYTHING.

649
00:39:37,867 --> 00:39:40,367
HE'S PROUD OF ME.

650
00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:44,633
I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT TODAY.

651
00:39:44,633 --> 00:39:47,900
IT'S BEEN SO FREEING
AND SO LIBERATING.

652
00:39:47,900 --> 00:39:51,533
DEALING WITH A LOT OF PAIN
AND BITTERNESS

653
00:39:51,533 --> 00:39:53,100
THAT I HAD FROM MY PAST...

654
00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:59,733
...IT FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING
IS STARTING TO COME TOGETHER

655
00:39:59,733 --> 00:40:02,967
AND THAT I'M GONNA MAKE IT.

656
00:40:13,567 --> 00:40:16,233
I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW.

657
00:40:16,233 --> 00:40:20,967
I CAN GET AROUND WITHOUT
A WHEELCHAIR OR ANY OXYGEN.

658
00:40:20,967 --> 00:40:24,900
OH, THIS IS PRETTY.

659
00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:27,867
I FEEL LIKE A NEW PERSON.

660
00:40:27,867 --> 00:40:32,500
I CAN SHOP AT MORE PLACES
LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO.

661
00:40:32,500 --> 00:40:36,767
I FEEL GREAT ABOUT MYSELF.

662
00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:38,667
I'M REALLY HAPPY.

663
00:40:38,667 --> 00:40:43,833
I'VE NEVER WORN A DRESS.
THIS IS MY FIRST DRESS.

664
00:40:46,667 --> 00:40:47,833
A YEAR AGO,

665
00:40:47,833 --> 00:40:51,633
I WOULD'VE NEVER THOUGHT
I'D MAKE IT THIS FAR.

666
00:40:51,633 --> 00:40:53,200
[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ]

667
00:40:53,200 --> 00:40:56,900
GOD HAS HELPED ME,
AND I'VE HAD OTHERS HELP ME.

668
00:40:56,900 --> 00:40:58,967
BYE-BYE.
THANK YOU.

669
00:40:58,967 --> 00:41:01,400
AND I'M TRULY GRATEFUL.

670
00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:11,700
Y'ALL EXCITED?

671
00:41:11,700 --> 00:41:13,233
Girl: YEAH!

672
00:41:13,233 --> 00:41:15,267
'CAUSE NANA'S NOT
IN HER WHEELCHAIR.

673
00:41:15,267 --> 00:41:17,267
YAY!
YAY!

674
00:41:17,267 --> 00:41:20,400
Laura: I COULD NEVER SPEND
A LOT OF TIME WITH MY NIECES

675
00:41:20,400 --> 00:41:25,600
OR A LOT OF TIME JUST
BEING UP AND MOVING AROUND.

676
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:30,400
NOW NOTHING IS HOLDING ME BACK
LIKE IT WAS.

677
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:33,800
THERE'S A KITTY
OVER HERE, JULI.

678
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:34,900
I WANT IT!

679
00:41:34,900 --> 00:41:37,067
SINCE THEY'VE BEEN BORN,

680
00:41:37,067 --> 00:41:40,600
I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING
WITH MY NIECES.

681
00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:42,067
ARE Y'ALL EXCITED?

682
00:41:42,067 --> 00:41:43,233
YES!

683
00:41:43,233 --> 00:41:45,633
Laura:
I'M ACTUALLY PUSHING MYSELF

684
00:41:45,633 --> 00:41:49,867
BECAUSE I WANT THEM
TO SEE ME ACCOMPLISHING THINGS.

685
00:41:49,867 --> 00:41:53,367
AND IT'S GREAT.

686
00:41:53,367 --> 00:41:55,633
[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ]

687
00:41:55,633 --> 00:41:57,933
THEY MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.

688
00:42:03,100 --> 00:42:05,200
THEY'RE EXCITED ABOUT ME

689
00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:07,833
BECAUSE I'M DOING THINGS
WITH THEM

690
00:42:07,833 --> 00:42:10,967
THAT I HAVE NEVER DONE.

691
00:42:10,967 --> 00:42:13,933
I KNOW THAT THERE'S
A LOT OF THINGS OUT THERE

692
00:42:13,933 --> 00:42:15,933
THAT I HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED,

693
00:42:15,933 --> 00:42:18,367
AND I'M JUST TRYING TO TAKE IT
ONE DAY AT A TIME,

694
00:42:18,367 --> 00:42:19,867
BUT I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING
AT ONE TIME.

695
00:42:19,867 --> 00:42:21,367
THANK YOU FOR COMING.

696
00:42:21,367 --> 00:42:23,267
IT WAS GREAT.

697
00:42:23,267 --> 00:42:26,867
I KNOW I HAVE
A LOT MORE WORK TO DO,

698
00:42:26,867 --> 00:42:29,133
BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME,

699
00:42:29,133 --> 00:42:31,700
I HAVE NO DOUBT
THAT I'M GONNA GET THERE.